ON WHO YOU ARE BECOMING // When you are becoming who you aren’t yet, it’s the hardest to stay in the transition and not to try to go back to the old you. But even if you try, the old way doesn’t work anymore. It’s like you’ve outgrown your old skin.
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Yet, knowing the old you isn’t the now you, doesn’t make being the new you any more comfortable. She feels so VV awkward and unsure.
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And often once she is feeling sure footed and confident it’s time for her to become someone new again. That’s how this whole life thing seems to work.
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My little girls are growing. I’m noticing one bath time is about to become two. They are barely fitting in the tub together anymore. And really that’s just a sign of all the bigger things that are changing. I’m moving from one phase of motherhood to the next.
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I don’t know yet who I’ll be in this next phase. Things about it seem awesome. The girls can pretty much pack their own bags for our trips now! And I haven’t wiped a bottom but my own in over a month.
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But part of me wants to have another baby to stay in what’s familiar. Like somehow it’ll slow down the loss of the chubby cheeks in faces in front of me now. Like a new baby will keep the girls I already have in small voices and pattering feet.
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But it won’t. And so I’m just staying in the discomfort of this transition.
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Who are you becoming? Even if you aren’t quite her yet?
